43

Just taking a moment to remember my husband, Michael, on his birthday… He would have been 43 today. I hope where ever he is now (if there is some place to be), he’s happy and no longer worried about the problems of the world he untimely left behind. I hope he’s proud of how I’ve [...]

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10 Years

Just a few pictures of my favorite memories with Mike… I mentioned the setting sun on the Alabama state highpoint in a recent entry. Check out the background in the picture below. That wasn’t even the most beautiful part of it. I love how he used to wear that (purple) bandanna to protect his (balding) [...]

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And then there was one…

Last night I returned home from a day trip skiing at Seven Springs to find my cat, Cleo, dead. She was curled up in one of the cat beds in my bedroom, as though she were just sleeping. I knew something was wrong when I walked into my bedroom, calling her name, and she did [...]

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42nd

Today you would have been 42. 10 years of life you should have lived Children we should have had, Trips we should have taken. I’m plagued by thoughts of our lost adventures, Saddened by all that stolen time. I think of you every day, I wonder what you would have thought Of Bush, Palin, Obama; [...]

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Public v. Private Tragedies

I posted this on my blog’s FB page, but since I only have 17 friends on there, and I know more people must read my blog, I’m reposting with more details to the blog. I always struggle a little bit with the anniversary of 9-11 because it happened in the same year–just five months after–that [...]

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Wedding E-nnouncement, Jan 1999

I know this is out of order with the story I was telling, but in looking through Mike’s email folder, I came across the original message he sent to his coworkers announcing our engagement. Anyone who knew Mike’s voice would hear him loud and clear in this message. Also, I remember how proud he was, [...]

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A Requiem for 9 Years in Haiku

Memories fade like Morning fog warmed by sunlight Elusive specters. I try to hold you But fragments of you escape Into time’s ether. We are intertwined– A part of me died with you, As you live through me. My heart still pounds hard When I have some news to share And you’re not here. 4-14-01 [...]

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Memories

So… maybe it’s the date to blame for all my Mike thoughts of the late… April 14th looms near. The date. That everything. Changed. Forever. Last night I talked about the event in my life with Mike that clinched his position as my Champion. The walk down memory lane inspired a look through our old [...]

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Easter

I don’t really celebrate Easter. It’s not a holiday that really has a secular value when you’re too old to get excited about the Easter Bunny bringing you an Easter basket. I try to get excited about Easter, but it just doesn’t mean much to me anymore. I want to say it’s because Mike died [...]

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41

As someone who has lost a loved one, your mind always seems to sense when an important date is coming up, even when you thought you weren’t thinking about it. Yesterday morning, I woke up in a funk. I didn’t know why I was feeling so sad on the day after I’d done a century [...]

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