Okay, I did it, I registered for the writer’s conference I spoke about in the last post. But please don’t hold it against me if I then do not end up doing anything with this knowledge. I don’t want anyone here to think I’m headed on the course to write my memoir on widowhood (instead of following the other loose-end of becoming a grief counselor)… I will try (“Do or do not; there is no try,” Master Yoda says) to focus my energies upon writing. I have to stop avoiding it. At least I’ve decided to check things out… again (this, of course, isn’t the first time).
Incidentally, if you’ve known me for more than two years, you’ll come to realize, I aggressively chase one career lead or another for several months, and then I drop back away in fear. It’s a never-ending cycle of trying to find myself, thinking I have, then backing away in fear of failure. I just need to sit down and write, as suggested by some of my commenters, and not worry about the outcome. If anything, my friends will all read what I’ve written. Maybe someone will publish it after I die. I always picture that happening–people cleaning up my house after I die and reading all my journals, then, deciding my writing is brilliant, they publish it. Ha. But I don’t really think I’m brilliant, I’m obviously just dreaming here. (So don’t think me conceited.)
I think I was inspired by Joanna’s immersion in the creative world when I visited her in Columbus. I don’t write poetry very often (I don’t think I’m very good) but poetry slams rock! And the poetry community is way cool, reminding me of my days as a liberal arts academic at Hiram. In those days, we were full of ideas, visions of our future, and grandiose thoughts about making the world a better place. I need to immerse myself in creativity for a little bit more balance between my physical obsessions (cycling, skiing) and my mental requirements (writing, spirituality).
Anyway, here’s a copy of my registration to prove it:
Registration was successful for the following class: 09SPER901.01
Writers Conference and Workshop, Spring 2009 Starts: 03/28/2009 Meets: Saturday:
8:30 AM-1:30 PM, 1 Session
Fee Summary: Registration
Fee $59.00 Total Amount: 59.00